Does anybody remember that song from the ’80’s? Only it’s ‘Looking for Love in all the Wrong Places’. I feel that way some days when things just aren’t right. I know what I need to be eating, I just look in the wrong place. Or rather I give myself permission to look in the wrong place.
Well, I have hit my limit – again. It’s similar to when your body builds up enough resistance to a training program you are on and you need to switch things up. Actually it’s more like when your body can no longer function on the amount of fast acting insulin you are on and you either 1) need to take a higher dose, or 2) cut out the crap and live like you should be. Do you take the easy way out and take on another pharmaceutical or do you take accountability for yourself and put on your big girl panties?
I confess, over the past two weeks building up to Easter, I vacillated between being a good Catholic girl fasting on Fridays and then on difficult days having a Reeses Peanut Butter Egg that I was saving for the kids (curse those 6 packs). And I felt horrible after eating one, and the sugar makes me pure evil, and I’d wake up with dark circles the next day (yuck!) Stress eating DOES NOT solve issues, it creates more. When you look/feel worse after cramming things down your throat vs.releasing things needed to be expressed (maybe on paper vs out loud, please use discretion), you need to reassess things.
Remember back in college, when you would go out partying all night and then remember you had class at 8am? You would just stay up until class or sleep for 3 hours, go to class and work and then crash afterwards. You felt like hell, but you probably had an awesome time to reflect on. It’s not the same with this. It’s your life and your health you are dealing with now. We are adults now. We are responsible for our actions and decisions. And probably we have loved ones either partners or children that we are having a direct effect on. We cannot live selfishly anymore.
Every pharmaceutical has a side effect,usually negative on our health causing us to take another pharmaceutical. Every decision we make has a side effect. We can make as many excuses as we want to, to justify what we are doing. There are as many different articles, research studies, diets and how to’s to help us until we fall off the wagon again. But what happens when the damage we have done is permanent and we can’t go back to fix it?
Whether it is words we say when we are on a sugar crash, or a permanent health issue that no longer has a quick fix (like dementia or Alzheimer’s, neuropathy)? Is it worth looking for food in all the wrong places? After this past weekend, my answer is no. My family is too important to me. My children need a good example to follow, and now is that time where they are learning how to respond to daily stressors. Do I teach them to band aid their problems with addictions or do I teach them to face things head on and work through them?
I am not saying I have all the answers. I just know my next step for this leg of my journey.